Health and fitness is really important. It's important because I want to be a healthy mom that can keep up with the needs of my girls. On my wedding day, I was small. I weighed about 125 pounds. But of course, think backing, I thought I was fat. Seriously?! What was wrong with me?! I'm not sure why I had that mindset because I was clearly not fat. Now when I look at pictures of myself, I think I was too small. I needed to gain a little bit of weight and I would look healthier. Well, 2 kiddos later and I gained that weight.
When I got pregnant with Julianna, I weighed about 130 pounds. I gained about 35 pounds during my pregnancy. About 18 months later, I got pregnant with Olivia. At that time I weighed 140 pounds. There were about 10 pounds leftover from my first pregnancy that I just never could get rid of. I probably should have worked out more and ate healthier then but I had never had to do those things. Before babies, I was just naturally thin. It's not a lie- your metabolism changes so much when you have children and just get older in general. After I had Julianna, I tried exercising and just didn't stick with it. Life was so much busier. Working full-time, being a wife, being a mommy... I was just exhausted. So I never lost the rest of the baby weight.
Here I am now. I weighed 140 when I got pregnant with Olivia and I weighed 169 pounds on the day I delivered Olivia. The first 10 pounds came off instantly after birth and then other ten came off within a week of birth. Now, I'm stuck at 149 pounds. My current goal is to get back to my pre-pregnancy weight. Mostly for my health (my BMI is almost obese) but of course, I want to look good too. I would be lying if I said that wasn't a reason. I want to look and feel healthy.
So, how am I going to do it? Well first of all, I have to have self-control- which I seriously lack when it comes to sweets. I love my sweets. I still have to get quite a few calories in per day because of my breastfeeding but I have to be certain that they are healthy calories and not junk. I've given up fast food. It makes me feel terrible after I eat it anyways. I've been cooking almost all of our meals at home- which saves a lot of money too. I try to prepare balanced meals and use the healthiest ingredients possible. I have been planning out our meals for the week so that I know ahead of time what we're eating and we don't resort to fast food because I don't know what to make.
Self-control and healthy eating are the easy ones. Exercise is where it's difficult. I need to exercise to get back in shape. To tone up and to lose these last few pounds. But when you have 2 small children, it's difficult to workout. But starting Monday, I am going to try. I am going to start the 30 Day Shred again and stick to it. I'll do it when Olivia is sleeping and Julianna might just have to join in and do it with me if she doesn't want to play independently. We have a treadmill so I am going to try to walk a little bit when I can each day. When the weather isn't 100 degrees, I'll get the girls out and go for a walk outside too.
I have a plan. Can I stick with it? I'm going to pray for the motivation to stick to it. I want to be healthy and I want to be in shape. I want to be the best mother and wife that I can be. It's just 9 pounds... I can do this! Wish me luck on my journey!
